The stress of grief and loss and subsequent pregnancy and motherhood has laid pretty heavy on me. I have applied for a new job, but I almost feel like my anxiety levels are still so high at a baseline that I am not sure I can survive an interview! At the same time I don't think I should hold back from opportunities, especially since grief and motherhood are just my reality now.
Have you found that too, that it's harder to manage other kinds of anxiety now?
Absolutely yes. I am struggling right now with the stress of teaching and writing; I have done all these things before but the anxiety I feel this time is one hundred times what I've felt in the past. I know part of it is having a four-month-old baby who doesn't want to take a bottle, but the biggest part of it is the toll grief has taken - and continues to take - on me. I just don't have the same coping mechanisms.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the job hunt.
J I think you're the only person still reading this blog, so maybe I should just email you when I need to ruminate on grief! ;)
DeleteI think there's just so little room for any more anxiety and "stuff". I'm so close to overflow so much of the time ordinarily.
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